I remember when God died. The death of God changed my life.
It made me into the Christian pastor I am today. When Time magazine published its iconic red and black 1966 cover with
the words “Is God Dead?” I was a teenager struggling with my family’s Christian faith. At
the time I was in a Methodist-related school taking a Philosophy of Religion class
with our school chaplain. He brought the Time
article to class, and we discussed what it meant to say that God was dead.
I entered Denison University (at the time a Baptist
affiliated college) in 1968 planning to have a career in science. I took an
introductory religion course to satisfy the liberal arts requirement. David O.
Woodyard, Dean of the Chapel, was teaching the course. He had just published a
book entitled Living Without God, Before
God. In the class he surveyed the
works of radical theologians Thomas J. J. Altizer, William Hamilton, Gabriel
Vahanian, and Paul van Buren. The course turned my life around. A year later I
had switched my major to Religion.
It is no exaggeration to say that the Death of God Movement brought
me to God. The chief concern in the 1960’s was how to do theology in a post-WWII,
post-Holocaust era. In the Religion department we thought long and deep about the
problems of evil and suffering. We debated Bonhoeffer’s “religionless
Christianity.” We discussed Elie Wiesel and Viktor Frankl. We read Niebuhr and
Barth, Brunner and Buber, Tillich and Heschel. I was hooked. After graduation I
went to seminary.
How does the death of God lead a man to a life of professional
Christian ministry? For me Death of God theology was the first taste of
religion that took existential problems seriously. It offered no easy answers;
it was willing to go wherever truth led. It was utterly honest at a time when
institutional religion seemed shallow, judgmental and hypocritical. For
example, Death of God theologian Bill Hamilton lost his job as a professor at Colgate
Rochester Divinity School (a seminary related to my American Baptist denomination)
because of his theological and intellectual honesty.
If you are not familiar with the radical theologians of the
1960’s, there is not room enough in this brief essay to fill you in. I will
simply say that the Death of God is likely not what you think it is, or what
most church people in the 1960’s thought it was. It is about the death of
theism, both fundamentalist and liberal varieties. Neither camp has yet come
to grips with the obituary a half century later. It was the death of the “god
of the gaps,” the demise of a shrinking deity whose only job was to fill in the
remaining gaps in the answers science offered about the nature and origin of
the universe.
The death of God movement was about going beyond words and ideas,
beyond institutional religion and spiritual fads. The death of God led me to
the Christian mystics while still an undergraduate. After seminary graduation I
was lured into the wilderness of evangelical Christianity for a few decades,
but eventually I returned to my spiritual roots to deconstruct my religion and rediscover
God beyond God, to use Meister Eckhart’s phrase. I have chronicled this
theological journey in my books Thank God
for Atheists and Experiencing God
Directly.
There is a well-known Buddhist saying: “If you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him!” This is not really a call to assassinate a spiritual leader. Similarly the death of God is not really about deicide. It is about dethroning idols and intellectually dismantling the religions built around them. One cannot see clearly until one’s idols are dead and buried. This iconoclastic quest led me to the Eternal Christ. That is what the Death of God did for me.
I too experiences the Death of God idea in the late 60s. While I was raised in a Protestant church, the zeitgeist of the 60s made that tradition an object of ridicule for me.
ReplyDeleteYet the spiritual urge was unabated and this began a lifelong journey into and out of various spiritual paths. The 3 prime ones were Taoism, Buddhism, and Advaita Vedanta. The last one being the strongest. It took me a long time to understand that my attraction to Vedanta was driven by an "urge towards God". It seemed to offer a deeper, more philosophically satisfying set of ideas than were available in my Christian upbringing. Not to mention personal meditation practices said to reconnect one with "The One".
There are references to Christ made by several Vedantic teachers and writers. These intrigued me as they all clearly included Christ as among the prime sources of spiritual development. Combine that with some of the stories about Jesus possibly travelling to India and you have a pathway back to a form of Christianity.
Your work is also part of my explorations as you have made the effort to unpack the non-duality in Christ's teachings. If Non-duality is true, which is the essence of Vedanta, Buddhism, etc. then it must be inherent in Christianity.
I'm in my 60s now and my understanding is as yet incomplete. But I wanted to thank you for your contributions to my learning.