The poem was written during the Second World War and is
long: 1,500 lines and over 50 pages. It
was designed to be set to music, but as far as I know the music was never
completed. The poem consists of a series of monologues that are spoken by
characters, choruses, and a narrator. Each year a different part of the poem
catches my attention. This year it was Part V in the section entitled “Advent.”
O where is that immortal and nameless Centre
from which our points of
Definition and death are all equi-distant?
Where
The well of our wish to wander, the
everlasting fountain
Of the waters of joy that our sorrow uses
for tears?
O where is the garden of Being that is only
known in Existence
As the command to be never there, the
sentence by which
Alephs of throbbing fact have been banished
into position,
The clock that dismisses the moment into the turbine of time?
The first line hooked me: “O where is that immortal and
nameless Centre from which our points of definition and death are all equidistant?”
That is exactly how I experience God. God is the Center of existence. Christmas
may be the time for most Christians to swoon over the divine Baby in a manger,
but I contemplate the immortal and nameless Center.
This Center is nameless because the true God cannot be
named. That is the testimony of scripture. When Moses asked God’s name at the
Burning Bush, God evaded the question. When pressed, God simply responded, “I
am that I am.” A decade ago I translated the opening lines of the Tao Te Ching into Christian language for
my book, The Tao of Christ, and I put
it this way:
The God who can be described
is not the true God.
The Name that can be spoken
is not the Name of God.
God is unnamable.
Naming God is the
beginning of religion.
Let go, and you find God.
Hold on, and you get
theology.
God is the immortal and unnamable Center “from which our
points of definition and death are all equidistant.” I hear Auden saying that we spend most of our lives on the circumference
of life, tinkering with the details. Everything that distinguishes us from everyone and everything else
is on the edge of existence. True Life is at the Center, in “the Garden of
Being” where all comes together in One. If you want to know God, look in the
Center.
In traditional Nativity scenes, the Christ Child is the
center of attention. All eyes are directed toward the manger. The other
characters in the Christmas story – parents, animals, shepherds, magi and
angels - occupy ever-widening circles around this Child, like the nine spheres
of heaven in Dante’s Paradiso. To
locate Christ, you look to the center. To find God in our lives, we look to the
Center, the Home of God.
“Where is that immortal and nameless Centre?” Auden asks. Jesus answered that question. “The Kingdom of Heaven is within you.” That is where we find Christ during this Christmas season. The apostle John’s Christmas poem (the prologue of his gospel) says, “The Word (the Eternal Christ) became flesh and dwelt among us.” Literally the Greek text says that the Word dwells IN us. Christ is the Center. Take time this Christmas to get off the periphery of life and see for yourself.
One day, I was contemplating the center. I was questioning the time and space continuum. I was wondering about the existence of God within the cycle of birth and death. And I saw that in the center is the Rebirth.... That which is God. I then pictured an infinity symbol with a circle in the middle. We are all flowing (if we are lucky) between the worlds of life and death, all while being alive. We are passing inside of God for brief moments...experiencing that unnamable Within, like trying to hold onto smoke.
ReplyDeleteI wish words could do justice here, the words do not fully reflect the experience.
I am so grateful for you.
Heidi